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When Panic/Anxiety Attacks Come Outta Nowhere Yet From EVERYWHERE…

22 Oct, 2016
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So let me start this blog by saying that I know that this, my Mom blog, was supposed to be funny. Well, if you are a Mom and you are funny or comedian-like you know that sometimes and some days you don’t feel funny or in a mood to joke around. So, today I am just being real which I love to be-funny or not. Today I am not feeling funny…

As a reminder I have never ever had panic/anxiety attacks until I had postpartum depression. Thank God with my first bout I only had a few. With the second bout, currently a WIP, you never know what you are gonna get. Sometimes the attack will come outta no where. I will be grocery shopping and I will feel like I was just hit in the face with a mac truck. And then I remember something; something very very important for my fellow postpartum depression warrior survivor moms: I remember Aunt Flow is due to make a visit. So yeah, ok, when I remember that then the attack makes sense: my hormones and body are outta whack. Ok, you sucky attack, you get a pass. Deal with it and move on.

But then there are times when I personally think and believe that I, my life style and my OCD perfectionist personally causes my own attacks. Why? Very simply put: because I do too much. I say YES too much. I don’t follow the rules in my own book about “taking it easy”, “resting”, and ahem, “letting it all go”. Yeah, NO, I do not do that and so I put myself in a position of compromise. It’s like a floor that has a leak. You can wipe the leak away and hope for the best or, you can pull up the floors, replace them and start fresh. A floor that has a leak on or over it, even semi-dealt with, will eventually crumble and fall apart. And, so these are the days of our (my) lives…

Yes, these annoying panic/anxiety attacks can come from no where, non-intentionally or they can come from a valid reason: Momma, you’re overdoing it. So the only question we are left with is: do you want to deal with that beast when she comes or before she comes? Do you want to experience yet again the overwhelming feeling that comes on out of no where and makes you stop dead in your tracks? Or do you want to CHILAX and though your life may be even more chaotic (because you’re taking a well deserved friggin’ break!) at least you won’t have to face that beast in the face again? Decisions decisions…

For my fellow Moms and even Dads out there going through this please know I am with you. I suffer with you. I hope with you. I pray for you and us. We will overcome this…

God bless,


Author of What’s Wrong With Mommy? Ride The Wave of Postpartum Depression With A Mother of Nine

The Balancing Act: From Wife to Mom to Worker

5 Oct, 2016
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OMG. I am done. Done, done, DONE! But wait, I can’t be done because I’m da Momma! So onward we go!

Part of the book I am working on right now is mainly focused on how I manage it all. Many have asked me how I do it all since they know that I am a wife, I am a Mom to 9 kids ages 10 and under and because I also work part-time from home which, as we all know, part-time can very well easily turn into fulltime!

I am not gonna lie when I say that nine times out of ten it sucks, like royally. However, I would not trade it – any of it – for the world. I am married to the best man on the planet and I long for date nights or trips away alone with him. I have the most incredible children and because there are so many there is so much love! I have had a great job for over four years which allows me to work from the comfort of my own home around my kids’ schedules so I can’t complain but I do.

I complain because I am one person. I complain because my husband has many late nights due to his career. I complain because – since I hated school/learning until I was in my mid 20s AFTER college – I hate homework and it can take for-ever! I complain because sometimes the juggling act is too much.

I have often thought about a Mom blog focused on working Mommas and Moms who work from home (those who “work” for a job and also work for their families or, shoot-me-now BOTH). I opted to keep it all on this blog since I love this blog and…since I have another one so three blogs? Yeah, no…too much for me to manage or um, balance!

So how do you Mommas how there balance it all? What is your secret? I would love to hear it. Because sometimes I look (or don’t even look) at myself in the mirror and wonder if I will actually survive all of this! There are emails and projects to be finished, there are starving kids, there are kids without clothes  (wearing summer clothes and um, we in fall my peeps!), there is a husband neglected, and um, a wife who looks like hell because she is lucky if she showers each day. #justkeepingitreal

Right now I say I do it on “a wing and a prayer”. And wine. Lots of wine. And then of course someone who can be there to talk to after the wine runs out. Thanks bff.

Whatever your secret is Momma, as I always say, rock on with your bad self. You are doing a great job! #justkeepswimming

God bless,


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