Dedicated to my husband who made me a Mom, to all of my beautiful children and to all of the Moms out there rockin this Mom gig! Happy Mother’s Day!
You were conceived in my mind before you were ever actually conceived.
I always wanted to be a Mommy.
When I was a little girl I loved playing with baby dolls and real babies.
When I grew up I spent a lot of time roaming the world to figure out what God had in store for me always thinking, in the back of my mind, that YOU were part of His plan.
There were times when I questioned God and did not think it would happen; it being finding the right man to be the gift of your Father.
But of course I would find your Daddy in His house, at Church!
We knew that we both wanted children and Daddy always said that he wanted a football team and some cheerleaders.
Fun fact: did you know that NFL football teams have a total of 53 players? So I guess Daddy can still say this! (giggle)
What we didn’t know is that God would give us our firstborn, Peter, pretty much right away after we were married!
And, as you know very well, the rest continued to follow…Anthony, Maria, Bella, Nicholas and Thomas, Andrew, Joseph, Philip and now Christian.
How we were and are blessed! God has been so good to us!
I never could have prepared myself for soooo many things…
- My body stretching so much!
- My weight gain!
- My back pain! There were times I could not walk…
- My sinus and head pain! There were times I could not get out of bed…
- My nausea and tummy issues! Forget about it! This was the worst when I had it!
- My sleepless nights!
- Peeing so much!
- Sleeping so much!
- Relying on Daddy so much!
- Constantly worrying if you were OK because you didn’t kick enough…
- Worrying because the Doctors would tell me one thing (but you would end up perfect!).
- The utter fear and panic of going through labor and delivery every single time.
- Having oxygen masks on my face to help you because your heart was decelerating!
- Being cut open for an emergency C-section!
And so many other pregnancy symptoms!
- The awful recovery of a C-section!
- Other painful issues associated with recovery!
- Having my boobies in so much pain from nursing!
- Not being able to nurse!
- ALWAYS nursing!
- Not being able to sleep at all!
- Staying and worrying in the hospital extra days because you needed more help.
- Visiting the NICU when Nicholas had issues!
- Thinking you would die of a virus I had no control over.
- Suffering from postpartum depression and anxiety and experiencing the worst year of my life…
- Raising you! What the heck am I doing? How do I do this?
- Trying to understand your different cries, needs and wants.
- Trying to navigate being sleep deprived, working for a job and making sure all of your needs were met for ALL of you.
- Feeling guilty for working and not being home with you all the time.
- Working too much – in the house and for my job.
- Worrying in the night about things I said or did wrong.
- Not being a good example to you.
- Not spending enough time with you collectively or one-on-one.
- Failing to teach you better.
- Praying you would turn out ok as children and young adults.
- Not being the best Mom I should be…
And many many more things…
And yet, here we are… Me and You. All beautiful TEN of you.
Some women can’t even have one.
Some women lose their babies.
Some women take their babies lives before they are born.
And yet somehow I am here FULLY BLESSED with all of you.
And guess what? I would not take it back for a second…
And I would do it all over again. And again.
There may have been a lot that comes along with getting the title of Mommy but there is no job the earth as rewarding.
I may look in the mirror and not recognize myself most days.
I may want to be someone else or look like someone else.
But the wrinkles I have are from the all the joys and sorrows that Motherhood has brought me.
The stretchmarks are signs that my body carried you and nurtured you.
My sagging boobies are proof that I fed you.
My overused and abused uterus represents NINE pregnancies and TEN beautiful children.
No, I am not the same person inside or out. I am completely different. I am better because of you…because of being your Mommy and for that I am eternally grateful to you.
So no matter what I say or how I act, and no matter where I am in this world or the next – with you or without you – just know that I am and will always be very proud of you and to be called your Mother. Thank you for the gift of life times ten. Thank you for being you. Thank you for putting up with me. Thank you for all you do for me and for our family and your siblings. I love you, my children, more than you will ever completely fathom. My life is yours; now, always and forever.
- Mom – XOXO